So it's been about a year since my last post and that's mostly been on purpose. My last post was me basically laying out everything that has been wrong with me (and it's been quite a journey since then). So I figure this is a bit of an update:
I have bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder used to be called manic-depressive order, and there's a good reason for that: it presents with two major symptoms: A high energy phase; and a low energy phase. In mania, I make poorly thought-out decisions and hear voices and feel major paranoia. In depression, I can't even get out of bed and have suicidal thoughts. Each phase is spaced out with about 4 months in between the worst times (so mania - 4 months - depression - 4 months - mania, etc.).
Despite my best efforts, it's not the kind of thing that you can just snap out of. But the good news is that, once it's recognized and diagnosed, it's very treatable. So I'm on a mixture of medications designed to balance my mind, and it's made a tremendous difference. I'm back in school and able to function normally (for now). I hope these medications continue to work into the future.
As for my religion (in reference to my post a year ago), Camille and I have decided to move in a different direction. We thank everyone for their input.